Me Singing On YouTube #YOLO

People are going YOLO, YOLO, YOLO, YOLO nowadays and I'm like, "What is this YOLO thing!"

So I clicked on my best friend, Google, types a littles around da internets and then I find Urban Dictionary who solved my questions:

Ah, so it's actually an acronym for "You Only Live Once" where an act of stupidity follows. And here I was thinking it was some modern style of yodeling because of...


"YOLO-leh-HEE-hoooooo!"


Anyway, browsing through all the #YOLO statuses made me feel like doing some YOLO-ing myself. Thus, I'll join the band wagon of humiliation personal triumph by doing something very out of my own timid character which is...


SINGING.





ON.





VIDEO!!

DUN. DUN. DUNNNNNN!

YES!

I've always wanted to do a video of myself singing to post on Youtube and wait for subscribers to pour in and share with whoever for fun. It took me a long time to come to this decision but following my reading at the anthology launch, I think I've gained some confidence to do this.

Plus, I was inspired by some of the singers I know personally. There's Amanda (church friend ; visit visit!!), Mabel (my cousin) and my boyfriend, Kay -- who is on the list because he ... er, tries so hard its inspiring.

Anyway, hearing them sing makes me think about putting my singing abilities out. I mean, if I don't show people what I can do then how will they know what I'm capable of? True story because nobody really knows but I can sing pretty damn well.

A few months back in Febuary, I met this girl called A (she's publicity shy) from uni who taught me how to sing from my diaphragm. I sang from my throat last time apparently. I practiced hard and did all the vocal exercises so it's paying off now. Testimony is my flatmate who caught me singing in the kitchen the other day.

He said to me: "Hey, that sounds really good."

This is why I thought I should expose myself a little and post up a video of myself singing to a camera. It's actually kind of daunting but well, I tried. #YOLO.

And so for my carpe diem, here's a video of me singing Susan Egan's "I Won't Say I'm In Love". Exactly like she does it.

I hope you like it!!

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Hehe. So......!!!

How was my singing? I hope you're all bowled over at my vocal talent. It was so flawlessly alike Susan Egan's, wasn't it? I did say I'll be singing it exactly like she does it after all.

Oh, man. I really wish I could see your faces but I can't. Sadly. But really, how many of you hit the pause button after the first 5 seconds and scrolled around in confusement?

And how many of you went "WTF is this shit"?

And did anyone even watch the video to it's last minute without pausing or cringing?

Most importantly, did anyone believe that was really me singing? Because if you do, then I'm sorry to say I was LIP SYNCING the whole time and that...

Yup, I lied about being a damn good singer. I lied about taking lessons with a friend. I lied about practicing. And I lied about the flatmate who complimented my singing.

What actually happened was that I was cooking when he came in and said, "Hey, that smells really good."

It was actually a compliment on my food. And I wasn't even singing. Because who sings when they cook?

And do you know something else?

I'M NOT EVEN SORRY I LIED!!
(baw haw haw haw!)

I mean, I am fiction writer.

I cannot help lying to make my stories believable. In fact, I have to. Strange juxtaposition but if I managed to convince you that you were going to hear me sing, then ... ho yes, I'm getting better.

Ok. Serious time. All lies aside, I've been thinking about doing a lip syncing video lately. It looks so fun and I even tweeted about it which makes this post not entirely untrue. It's not a #YOLO about me singing but a #YOLO about me LIP SYNCING.

The whole idea of carpe diem and #YOLO is about seizing the moment, achieving something you haven't achieved and doing something you wouldn't normally do. This video is my #YOLO because I've always been too self-contained and wanted to bare the dramatics for fun.

I watch Youtube like a couch potato and lots of users post up stupid stuff just for fun and giggles. So I thought, why not? Shan (Real Me) may not have what it takes for a funny video but Kingyo (Blogger Me) might like the opportunity to come out and do whacky stuff.

Haha, yes ... I give the conflicting voices inside my head names taken from my blog pseudonyms. Shan is quiet, nervy and the prima personality while Kingyo is the repressed drama queen that acts out here and then.

Taping myself was sooo weird because music was playing and I was "singing" without sound. I felt like a mute rocking out in my room but it was fun watching the video again and feeling awed that I was capable of lip syncing and being funny at it.

I really hope you think so too! Or else I'd sound so narcissistic .

When I was about to click the "Upload" button, I was a little unsure if posting it was such a good idea. Mainly because I wondered what will people think. My own boyfriend laughed but said it made him want to cringe because it's not his cup of humour tea.

So if my own boyfriend doesn't like it, what about the others? Like, my UK friends and other Malaysian friends?

Will the Brits think of me as this little Asian with weird habits?

And will the Malaysians think "OMG, why la is this girl is sooo fucking weird!"?

Worst... will my mum and dad think their daughter is better off as a Si Badut (Bozo the clown) than a writer???????

It's kind of scary to get all that down as proper sentences but I've decided to tell myself that it shouldn't matter. It's only a video of someone (me) goofing around. There's no offensive content -- unless you count the Starbucks shirt I'm wearing as blasphemy -- and neither does it burn anyone's eyeballs.


I hope.

Nope. This is just a video of me having fun and learning to be comfortable with myself and basically just ... well, carpe diem-ing.

What about you? What's your carpe diem?

P/S: I'm leaving for home tomorrow ... er, today. It's 4.33 AM now, haha. "Hooray!" for home and "Hooray..." for a 17-hour flight. I'm telling myself not worry and think about the 3-month holiday instead. Oh, hello food! Hello friends! And hello family! I can survive this flight, no problem!

♥ Miss Kingyo

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